As I sat on the plane on the way to Denver, I couldn't help but to let the feelings of anxiety begin to well up inside of me. Don't get me wrong, I am super excited, ecstatic even, to move here. I can't even begin to tell you how happy it makes me to know that I am near the mountains with countless adventures awaiting us. I am ready to live in a city with more opportunities for us as a couple and for me as a graphic designer than what Central Illinois had to offer. However, I am not that great at making friends. I love people but it is hard for me to truly invest in relationships outside of the ones I already have because I have always been the type of person who preferred a handful of deep relationships over a multitude of friends. Friendship has always been a top priority in our marriage and the relationships we are leaving behind in Illinois are so near and dear to us that the idea of creating a similar community in a new city seems out of reach. In my heart I know this is not true, especially since we already have friendships in place in Denver, but my mind over thinks and gets thoughts like "What if I don't fit in?" "What if no one likes me" "What if we never make friends?" etc.
However, I know in my gut that this move is right for us. Especially after coming here and finally seeing our new city for the first time, we just know this is where we want to be. I just have to trust myself and my instincts and trust that when we move out here we will build that community again as long as we remain patient and continue to be true to ourselves. I fully believe that as long as we do that we will meet people who like us for us and who we truly feel a connection with. It's just being patient that is the hard part.
On a lighter note: I LOVE DENVER. I love being in a city and I especially love being in a city near the mountains. We got here Tuesday and are staying with our good friend, Dave, and his wife, Hannah. Tuesday night we went over to one of Dave friends house for a cookout. I tend to close into myself when entering a situation where I don't know anyone, but it ended up being good since I was able to connect with Dave's cousin's girlfriend and talk with her for a while.
Wednesday we went to our new Starbucks locations and we are both in LOVE with our stores. Both of our stores are located in downtown Denver and will be very different from where we work now but we both got along well with our managers and are very excited to start working in August.
Today we looked at a few apartments and weren't super excited about any of them. We have a few more places we will be looking at so fingers crossed that one of them will work out!